I’m starting to feel half normal again. I’ve spent the last two days at home just relaxing. Spending time with family and trying to process everything that happened to us has been therapy in itself. Every blog post I write I feel I’m a tiny step closer to coming back to reality. We were in our own bubble there for a while due to the circumstances. Chilling out at home, catching up on sleep and eating proper home cooked food again has helped to bring me back down to earth.
Unfortunately life is hard and there will always be tough times. There are some dark days ahead, but there are some bright ones too. Tomorrow I’m going to start by getting straight back onto my Unislim plan. Believe me there was no clean eating done the last two weeks at all. I’m going to get out for a long walk and clear my head. Getting back to a proper routine and doing the things I enjoy will definitely help me a little bit.
I know I have a long road ahead of me yet and I’m far from “fine” I’m devestated, broken, and I feel hollow on the inside from the overwhelming pain in my heart. However I still have my life and I want to live it. I have my eleven year old son going back to school on Tuesday. My Husband Paddy who has supported me through this terrible ordeal. My heartbroken Dad, I need to be strong for him and my brothers and sisters. I’m also due to become an Auntie for the first time at the end of September. I’m very excited about this new chapter.
Unfortunately death is part of life, and every family will get their turn eventually. We just happened to get ours a little too soon. I’m grateful for all the brilliant years we had and all the happy times. There are happy times yet to come, we just have to get used to this “new normal”
For my regular readers I will get back to writing regular posts very soon. I find writing about my experiences and pain quite therapeutic. Thank you for reading these posts I know they are upsetting. I wanted this blog to be truthful and real that’s why I shared this personal information with you all.
Chat to you soon,